this is my concern

this is my concern that i am sending out to anybody that listings to spoken word to anybody that takes pride in feeling joy in laughter. subtle suicide self rightouss anger hate love bewildered emotion's of a selfless man on that privies on wicked thoughts of man to insure hate is brought forth and love fades to the back of the mind where it does not belong it belongs to the heart.i am a empty shell of a once used person scorn by life crushed by pity shot down by love so much that life it self stopped time halted and feelings were no longer. time started slowly for me not seeing a day of reality for 6 years of my life to its full span the big picture no longer mattered to me only the now and the fact that once again in my life i was alone to fend for my self no matter oh look blood drips in to an hour glass time goes faster as some strange trip i am a fail er a loser a kindled spirit flowing through the life stream crashing the rocks cutting my skin my flesh exposed my heart broken by life back to start making the same choices the same feelings being shot down by faith needing an escape to feel like someone i buried my head in books but not the right ones i searched for answers but got more questions of why what if and how come.Only time will show the way of the world there's more pain and more of lifes little mystery's